Another year come and gone… HELLO 2010~

Skydiving October 6, 2009~

As I sit here dreading the 12 hours of InDesign Classroom in a book that I have to go through…. I started to read back on some of my previous posts.  I often forget how much I love blogging…. Something about writing and getting my thoughts and feelings out…. It’s VERY LIBERATING!!!!   And you know I’m all for that!! lol

So, I’ve done it again.  I’ve piled myself up with a whole wack of things to do. LOL  Let’s compare it to previous years… LOL My last 12 credits of my Undergraduate degree, full time work, and part time work once a week.  12 hour days twice a week. LOL  It’s crazy, but motivating!  I’m getting back into the gymmie (twice a week), going to physio to make my ankle better…. I can feel it getting stronger every day.  My ankle was definitely one of the more difficult set backs I’ve experienced to date.  The difficulty in doing the every day things that I love, it felt like my body was betraying me for a while…  It was soooooo hard… And there were so many occasions where I wanted to give up……it was SOOOOOOOOOOOOO easy to give up on it, especially considering how many times I kept reinjuring it….  But I’m glad I didn’t give up.  I’m glad that I’ve been going to physio for almost 2 months now, and I’m doing my exercises every night… And I FINALLY can feel it getting stronger…. *thumbs up*  I guess we really take things like our health for granted…. And that’s really unfortunate.  It really is.  I miss running like you would not believe…  One of my goals for this year is to start running again… And to be able to wear high heels comfortably for my graduation this year.  I also would like to try pilates or hot yoga once my ankle is better better.

You know, lately, I’ve started to realize that it’s easier to be lazy and it’s easy being bad.  Being good, and doing the things that are good for you is actually really HARD.  It’s strange, it’s soooooooooooooooooo easy to learn bad habits… but LEARNING and KEEPING good habits are soooooooo difficult.  Why is that?  Is it the society that we live in that is absolutely corrosive and too superficial for anyone’s own good?  I wonder…. I mean, I don’t really enjoy clubbing like the clubbers in Vancouver do.  Sometimes I miss dancing, so I’ll go dancing.  But I personally CANNOT STAND the snobby, superficial clubbing scene. Oftentimes I find myself just enjoying all the little stuff in between, going for a walk, engaging in thought-provoking conversation, going out for a nice dinner, etc.  Just the simple stuff.  Life is already so complicated, why do people choose to complicate it further?  If we really learnt how to break things down and simply them, then our lives would be so much more satisfying… That’s what I think at least…

*sigh*  You know what’s super hard?  When you strive to do the challenging things, and the people in your life that are supposed to care about you cannot support you.  They discourage you, and they tell you it’s impossible.  And that’s so hard.  I grew up with important people in my life telling me that I’m incompetent and that I will never accomplish anything.  If I believed them, I wouldn’t be the person I am today.  I push myself hard b/c I know that the only way we can achieve our goals, our dreams, our passions, is to push ourselves to the limit.  Setting goals is really important too.

I’m so proud of myself, last year, I managed to check off a good chunk of things that I’ve had on my list of goals since 2006! I joined indoor soocer, found a salsa partner and did salsa, I jumped out of a plane… And the list goes on.  I wanted to do those things for myself, and I did them.  I wanted to find a gov’t co-op, and I did.  I work hard, b/c I believe in hard work.  If you wanna get somewhere in life, you need to push yourself, because there is ALWAYS ROOM FOR IMPROVEMENT.  I sincerely belive that.  It doesn’t mean that I’m any less at this point in my life, it just means that I strive to be better than I was yesterday, to be better than I was last year.  B/c I want what’s best for myself, and for those I care about.  I think working hard, and enduring the hardships in life make you a stronger person.  I call them character defining moments…  I love character defining moments, they teach you so much about yourself, sometimes things that you don”t want to know, but b/c you know them, you can work on improving them.  If you don’t confront the issues, then how do you solve them?  I’m too solution-oriented to focus on all the mumble jumbo beating around the bush bullshit.  There, I said it.

Anyways, I’ve procrastinated long enough.  I was always really good at that heheheh

Thanks for listening to the little rant…. hahah

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